Nick Cannon’s baby mama Alyssa Scott posts sweet photo of son Zen & says ‘her heart breaks every second’ after his death
Nick Cannon’s baby mama Alyssa Scott posted a sweet photo of son Zen and said “her heart breaks every second” after his death.
Zen sadly died of a brain tumor earlier this month.
Alyssa, 28, took to her Instagram Story on Wednesday to share a throwback photo of Zen, who happily smiled at the camera as he rested in a car seat.
The model held onto her son’s tiny hand with the photo, which she captioned: “In moments that test me, I will always keep the focus on you.
“I love you so much Zen.”
She continued: “Not a second goes by that I don’t ache wishing you were here.
“I close my eyes and see you smile.”
The post concluded with Alyssa telling Zen, who passed away at just five-months-old, that she loves him three times.
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ZEN'S FINAL MOMENTS
The Wild 'N Out star announced the infant's passing earlier this month on his self-titled talk show in a tearful on-screen moment.
Nick, 41, recently opened up further about Zen's last few moments before his tragic death from hydrocephalus.
"You could tell he was struggling," the TV host told
"He was gasping for air. We'd wake up, and he wouldn't be breathing for maybe five to 10 seconds at a time, and then he'd let out a huge gasp.
"You could see it frightened him. It was the scariest thing I've ever experienced," he confessed.
Just two months after his birth, Zen was diagnosed with high-grade glioma, a rare and aggressive form of brain cancer.
The Masked Singer host told the publication that their discussions quickly surrounded his "quality of life" as the couple didn't want the child to "suffer."
"We could have had that existence where he would've had to live in the hospital, hooked up to machines, for the rest of the time.
"From someone who's had to deal with chemotherapy before, I know that pain," he explained, reflecting on his own battle with the autoimmune disease lupus.
"To see that happen to a 2-month-old, I didn't want that. I didn't want him to suffer."
Nick continued on to say that his "heart is shattered"; over the loss.
"I wish I could have done more, spent more time with him, taken more pictures. I wish I could have hugged him longer."
MOURNING MOTHER
Alyssa was spotted over the weekend for the first time since losing her son.
In exclusive photos obtained by The Sun, the model was seen picking up coffee and dropping off her three-year-old daughter Zeela at a school in Chico, California.
The young mother has been staying with her parents Alex and Lisa at their home in Northern California while she mourns the loss of Zen.
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Meanwhile, Nick has continued to work on his daytime talk show, where he revealed on Friday that he had got a tattoo on his rib to honor the baby.
In addition to Zen, Nick is also father to 5-month-old twins Zion and Zillion, whom he shares with Abby De La Rosa, an 11-month-old daughter Powerful Queen and son Golden, four, whom he shares with Brittany Bell; and twins Moroccan and Monroe, 10, whom he shares with ex-wife Mariah Carey.
