I jumped from hotel balcony to kill myself during drunken gambling binge…I thought I had nothing left, says Jack Fincham

LOVE Island star Jack Fincham has told how he jumped off a hotel balcony in a heartbreaking suicide bid during his lowest point last year.

The reality star hit rock bottom after splashing all of his TV earnings on drugs, booze and gambling, he told The Sun.

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In 2018 Jack became an overnight sensation after winning the ITV dating show with Dani Dyer.

But seven years on, the Towie star has opened up about how his addiction troubles saw him blow his £1million fortune - and nearly lose his life.

While on a break with his partner, Towie star Chloe Brockett, 24, a stay in a West Midlands country hotel took a turn for the worst.

"I’d had the world at my feet, but the addictions destroyed everything," Jack said.

At the peak of despair, Jack recalls Chloe calling an ambulance in an effort to stop the star trying to take his own life.

He said: "I ordered room service — sambucas, Prosecco, five vodkas at a time. Bang, bang, bang, done.

“I started gambling on my phone, convinced I was going to win hundreds of thousands of pounds. But then I lost my last penny — or thought I had.

"I was that off my head I hadn’t pressed the button. But I thought I had.

"I was saying, ‘I don’t want to be here any more, I’ve had enough. I am a f***ing loser’."

Jack said went downstairs and begged hotel staff to stop serving him.

He added: "She asked them to call an ambulance because she was scared I was going to kill myself."

While she was away, desperate Jack threw himself from the hotel balcony.

He went on: "I remember weighing up the options, thinking, ‘I’ve nothing left to give here. Not a penny to my name. Nothing is salvageable’.

“We were in a hillside lodge and I jumped. If I’d have dived at a different angle, I may not be here today. That is scary.”

Cops took him away for his own safety while he sobered up.

He said: “My ankle was purple and I couldn’t walk for weeks. When I saw how Liam Payne passed away, I realised it could have been me.”

Describing the shocking spiral which led up to that night last summer, the 33-year-old said he had "nothing to show" for his reality work.

He spent £40,000 in one day on blackjack online and sat in bed alone taking cocaine.

Jack added: "I had the world at my feet and I screwed it up."

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Jack said: "I was in the hotel room and went on IMDB [a TV and film database], and I was like, ‘S***, I’ve done 30 TV shows’. I thought, 'I have messed up my life'.

"My followers had gone from 2.6million to 1.6million. Imagine lining up a million people who just don’t like you any more — it’s a horrible feeling."

Last week, Jack faced prison after pleading guilty to having a dangerous dog while on a suspended sentence for a drug-driving offence.

He has now revealed he feels "utterly mortified" by what he has done and only blames himself, saying: "I, Jack Fincham, am an addict.

"Embarrassed just doesn’t touch it. It is hideous. I cry when I think about how I’ve let people down.

"Drugs helped my relationship with Dani fail. I was absent, my priorities were wrong, I wasn’t a great boyfriend. I am determined to change my future.

"There’s times I wish I’d never been in the public eye and just stayed exactly as I was. Destruction was always in me, but fame and money made it happen quicker."

The past few months have seen Jack finally start to turn his life around as he has his eyes set on a promising future with partner Chloe.

He said: "My last drink was Christmas Day — just two Desperados. At New Year there was no drugs or booze for the first time in my adult life. That feels amazing.

"We just watched the fireworks together and knew 2025 would be different. I’ve been to rehab before — because I was forced to — but I didn’t actually think I was an addict. Now I’m not a kid, I need to change before it’s too late. If I don’t, I could die."

I ended up in psychosis because I hadn’t slept. My body felt  possessed. One night I woke up, went outside into someone’s driveway and took a kid’s trike

Jack Fincham

Jack and Chloe have been together since 2019, but it was in 2020 that he was forced into rehab by his mum for an addiction to anti-anxiety drug Xanax.

Jack explained: “I took it after cocaine to help me sleep. I could do £800 of cocaine on a night out. I’d even sat in bed with a pile next to me just sniffing it on my own.

“Then I started to take Xanax without the coke, sometimes ten pills a day.”

He quit it after rehab, but last summer a packet he had hidden during the height of his addiction dropped out of a cupboard.

As he remembers that moment, he shakes his head in disgust and points to the living room floor in his home in Grays, Essex, saying: “It dropped on the floor just there. I tried not to even look at it. I kept thinking, ‘I shouldn’t take these’ — then, ‘Maybe just one to help me sleep?’. I bought more online.

“My face changed, I was grey, my brain was half asleep and half awake. I wasn’t in control.

“I’d find a pub at 10am and convince them to let me in.”

Chloe intervened, threw the pills away and said she would leave him if he ordered any more.

Fighting back tears, Jack detailed his desperation after falling back into old habits.

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He said: "I searched every single pocket. I crawled on my hands and knees on the floor, under furniture, everywhere. They’re more addictive than heroin. I had withdrawal seizures, my body was jolting, insomnia that went on for days.

"I ended up in psychosis because I hadn’t slept. My body felt possessed. One night I woke up, went outside into someone’s driveway and took a kid’s trike.

"I was riding it on the road and the police detained me because they realised I needed help.

"I locked myself away for two days watching Alan Partridge and The Office over and over, comforted I finally knew the words."

I want a career, to earn money. I am worse off financially now than before Love Island

Jack Fincham

He also admits that some of his TV appearances saw him experiencing withdrawals or even highs: "I saw an episode of Dinner Date the other day and realised how dreadfully unwell I was.

"I looked awful. I don’t know what I was even doing on TV."

An addiction to gambling went hand-in-hand.

Jack said: "I started playing blackjack in 2021, £5,000 hands. I remember once dropping Chloe off at Towie and during the 40-minute cab home I blew £7,000.

"Sometimes I got up to £40,000 winnings, but the next day I’d have £2,000 left and think, ‘S***’, I need to pay the rent’."

The spiral continued with his addictions leading to two arrests for drug-driving and given a suspended sentence.

Having been spared prison, Jack appeared at Southend magistrates court last week for two counts of being in charge of a dangerously out of control dog.

After appealing the six week jail sentence, he is now on bail.

He said: “I was shocked they activated a sentence for something unconnected. They took me down and got me ready for prison. Chloe was crying in the court.”

Jack has now returned to the job he did before Love Island — selling stationery — and is doing a degree in financial trading.

He said: "I want a career, to earn money.

"I am worse off financially now than before  Love Island.

"At first, I made £8,000 for 30-second Instagram posts for companies like Vodafone, KFC or McDonald’s. But then nobody wanted me. I don’t blame them for rejecting me. I let people down."

He is also returning to boxing.

Next month he will take part in The Equalizer, a professional bare knuckle fighting event in Harrow.

And he is looking to the future with Chloe. Jack said: "I want to marry her and have children.

"I will propose when I have enough money. If I did it now, her ring would have to come out of a cracker. Chloe deserves much more than that. She deserves a medal — she has saved my life."

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