Bianca Gascoigne’s heartbroken boyfriend CJ Meeks breaks his silence and admits ‘I was going to propose but now I never want to see her again’ after watching her cheat with CBB’s Jamie O’Hara
BIANCA Gascoigne has been enjoying a passionate romance with footballer Jamie O’Hara inside the Celebrity Big Brother house for the past two weeks - despite having a boyfriend.
But after watching the love of his life passionately kissing, sharing a bed, and even saying those three little words ‘I love you’ to another man on national television, champion cagefighter CJ Meeks has had enough.
Speaking for the first time exclusively to The Sun Online, devastated CJ reveals Bianca’s betrayal has "killed him" and he feels so humiliated and heartbroken he never wants to see her again.
Despite planning a romantic proposal for the star when she leaves the house, CJ has now been forced to abandon his plans as he comes to terms with the betrayal.
"It’s been like my worst nightmare come true. We were very, very happy but she has destroyed me. I feel changed as a person – Bianca was everything to me, she was my best friend, I thought she was going to be the mother of my children, but she’s ruined it all – and what for, Jamie O’Hara?
"I genuinely don’t know what she’s going to do when she comes out and I don’t care – I’m gone."
CJ admits he was "head over heels" for the star, and after just four dates he took Bianca to Dubai and told her he loved her. They have been inseparable ever since.
The couple, who met just before Christmas 2015, and have lived together for five months, were planning a holiday in Dubai after CBB - and even their engagement.
Fighting back tears, CJ admits he’d been saving "for a while" to buy Bianca the engagement ring of her dreams, and after finding their dream home, he had no reason to believe she wasn’t happy.
"Bianca was always asking me, ‘Where’s my ring?’ Lots of our friends were getting engaged and I had it all ready for her. I said when she came home to me the diamond was waiting for her – that was the plan," he said.
But CJ admits watching Bianca get drunk and disappear into the toilets for a kiss with Jamie was like "torture" and now he never wants to see her again.
"That killed me. I thought, ‘If you can get drunk and kiss a guy on national television in front of me and my family, what on earth would you do on a night out if we weren’t watching?’ It’s unbelievable… I lost the plot.
"I was inconsolable for days, I couldn’t stop crying and I was still sitting in our flat, on our sofa, watching her climb into bed with another guy. It’s been like torture."
"She will not get the pleasure of speaking to me again. I’ve moved out of our flat, I’ve given the keys back to the concierge, I’ve changed my number and I’ve blocked all her friends and family on social media. She will not find me - I have run as far away as I can from her."
And ironically, CJ reveals Bianca told him she’d have to say she was single to get into CBB and he supported her decision completely unaware of what was to come.
"I wasn’t that happy about CBB but I was supportive. She told me it was all about the money and she had to say she was single and I said, 'That’s fine but don’t act single'. If anything I was a bit worried about Calum Best as they have history, he's very charming and he's good looking, but he's been the perfect gent."
After spending Christmas Day and New Years Eve together with both of their families, CJ still can’t fathom the betrayal and says “It’s unbelievable.”
CJ reveals Bianca’s antics have rocked everyone in the family and he’s struggled to cope with the shock of seeing the woman he thought he was going to marry telling another man she loved him – in front of the nation – so much so that he couldn’t eat.
"I haven’t been able to eat or sleep for five days, I’ve not been able to get out of bed or train – I couldn’t have had this conversation ten days ago because I couldn’t function. I still can’t really, I was in a hole," he adds.
"It’s not just me who’s been upset, I’ve had my mum on the phone crying because she’s upset I’m so heartbroken and she can’t believe someone could be so deceitful… I’ve had Bianca’s mum texting me saying she doesn’t know what to say to me."
CJ was reportedly due to confront the pair inside CBB and he admits he’s disappointed he never got the chance, as he believes his job as a cagefighter scared CBB bosses who were worried he would pose a threat to Jamie.
"I fight for a living, people know me as a big, bad cagefighter but you only have to talk to me for five minutes to know I’m not that person. I’ve never had a fight unless I’ve been paid – I don’t go down the pub and have a fight, as funny as it sounds I’m not a confrontational person.
"But I would have loved to see his face when I walked in. I had no problem with Jamie until he found out she had a fella and he still carried on…. if that was me I wouldn’t have looked at Bianca again, but I’m old school, I’m a gentleman and Jamie isn’t.
"Bianca did all this for fame and a bit of money and Instagram followers. I don’t hate her. I almost feel sorry for her. She had something so good and now she’s lost it all."