X Factor star Chloe Khan reveals show was ‘worst time in her life’ as she opens up about suicidal thoughts
CHLOE Khan has described her stint on the X Factor as the “worst time of her life”.
The 32-year-old appeared on the reality show in 2010 but was kicked off during the bootcamp stage after allegedly turning up "smelling like vodka".
Speaking about that time in her life for the first time in years, Chloe said: “It is such a suppressed memory, my life was horrific then, I was running away from something that was really, really dangerous.
“That was a really bad time for me so for me to see those images back again, it’s documenting the worst time of my life.”
Chloe opened up on her new podcast, , with Jem Lucy, admitting things got so bad that suicide seemed like an option.
She said: “Some of the things I went through then, I think normal people would have killed themselves.
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“The fact I carried on, I would either kill myself or I had to smash it. I didn’t have that option. I couldn’t go through that humiliation and trauma. I’ve got to be a billionaire now, how can I not be?”
She added: “Life got so much harder after the X Factor.”
At the time of the doing the show, Chloe went by the surname Mafia and was already a mum to a little girl called Destiny, who she keeps out of the limelight.
Since then Chloe has completely transformed her life and is a successful businesswoman with millions in the bank.
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She launched a very impressive webcam business, appeared in Playboy and is now a hugely popular glamour model.
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