Azaylia Cain’s mum Safiyya says she’s ‘drowning in pain and can’t get out of bed’ to plan daughter’s funeral with Ashley
AZAYLIA Cain's mum Safiyya has said she's "drowning in pain" and "can't get out of bed" to plan her daughter's funeral.
Last night, her boyfriend Ashley revealed that making the arrangements had "brought him to his knees" as he opened up about his grief online.
The devastated couple tragically lost their eight-month-old little girl last month after a brave battle with leukaemia.
Taking to her Instagram Story this morning, Safiyya opened up about her struggle as she and Ashley continue to battle through the unbearable pain of Azaylia's passing.
Sharing a photoshopped image that showed her, Ashley, and Azaylia staring up at the sky with Azaylia as an angel in the arms of Jesus Christ, Safiyya wrote: "Powerful picture, good morning Azaylia.
"In the morning when I open my eyes, it's a scary world I open to. I panic, get anxiety, and wonder where my baby is.
"It takes me about an hour to find the strength to get out of bed, I roll over from side to side hoping this was all a dream.
"I feel like I'm drowning in my body. My heart throbs with pain. I wonder how I'm going to get through another day."
The emotional post came just hours after Ashley shared his own pain following their daughter's death.
The 30-year-old reality star opened up about funeral plans for Azaylia as he penned: "I always dreaded the first time I'd have to plan a funeral. But I never, ever thought it would be my child's funeral.
"Nothing could ever have prepared me for this. Some days it breaks me and I can't even bare to do it.
"I always thought I was tough, but making decisions on how I'm going to bury my baby is enough to bring me to my knees every single time."
He added: "It's hard to make sense of anything right now, especially why did it have to happen this way!"
Through the darkness, the brave mum and dad have found solace in the sky, with Ashley admitting it'd brought him "peace" after he and Safiyya spotted their daughter's face, angels, and even Azaylia's initial in the clouds after her death.
And last night, Safiyya found comfort as she learned that Azaylia had been honoured by Pride of Britain, which pays tribute to Brits who have "acted bravely or extraordinarily in challenging situations".
At the beginning of April, the parents revealed that doctors had told them they could no longer treat Azaylia's leukaemia, which she was diagnosed with at just eight weeks old.
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The family had just raised over £1million for her to get specialist treatment in Singapore when they were delivered the heartbreaking news, with medics finding tumours throughout her body - including on her brain.
In the weeks that followed, Azaylia needed several blood transfusions as she started to cry blood, and suffer nosebleeds - with purple bruises also appearing on her body as her illness meant that her blood could not clot.
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She stopped breathing several times and began to suffer seizures in her final days, with Safiyya and Ashley providing their daughter round-the-clock care alongside their close family members.
Azaylia passed away at home on 24 April, with Ashley and Safiyya both paying emotional tribute as they broke the news on social media the following day.