Myleene Klass reveals she miscarried four times before giving birth to ‘rainbow baby’ Apollo
MYLEENE Klass revealed she's miscarried four times before giving birth to "rainbow baby" Apollo.
The singer, 42, took to Instagram earlier today to speak out about her past troubles trying to conceive, and admitted that she's "mama to seven babies".
The star decided to pay tribute to all the other mums who have gone through the same pain as her on Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day 2020.
Myleene posted some snaps from throughout her pregnancies and a from the heart caption explaining how she tried to cope with the grief from losing four children.
She shared with her 372k followers: "I am Mama to 7 babies, Ava, Hero, Apollo my rainbow baby and 4 little stars in the sky.
"I know after my own MC’s how I scoured the internet for stories similar to mine for peace, reassurance. I hope this helps even one lost soul..."
Myleene went on to open up about her four different experiences, with her first one which happened when she flying home from a holiday.
She explained: "At the airport, flying home for a D&C. I’d started bleeding heavily at 10wks on holiday. The scan was the saddest sight I’ve ever seen in my life.
"The first and last time I saw my baby. As the doctor pushed the camera on my belly, the familiar black and blue image of my baby sprung onto the screen, then started to sink and slowly floated down, til it just hunched over. I knew."
After they confirmed there was no heartbeat, Myleene "cried so hard" that the nurse had to hold her hand and answer questions on her behalf.
Myleene continued: "The feeling is nothing short of traumatic, shock. At my D&C I was asked to confirm the procedure. I cried so hard the nurse held my hand and answered for me.
"They taped my bracelet to my wrist, two gold swallows. It made me sob. Swallows love for life and always come home.
"I told the anaesthetist to please make sure I wake up as I’m a mum then I cried again at what they were going to take out.
"I woke to emptiness and the horror of what had happened. I felt I’d failed my baby and my partner."
Myleene recalled that her second miscarriage was "worse if that's possible" as she thought that she'd had her "'1 in 4' experience".
She told fans: This time, the baby had stopped growing at 10wks, completely unrelated to the first MC ‘so it’s just bad luck’.
"I didn’t take my eyes off the fire alarm on the ceiling, lest I break completely. Walking past the pregnant women in reception was torture.
"This D&C was no less traumatic. Infact, the familiarity of it cut deeper. The ‘wishes to dispose of the products of pregnancy’ form, the walking to theatre, the ugly socks. Having everything one minute, a name, a school, then nothing."
Myleene explained that she miscarried her third baby at work and her fourth on the toilet, which made her make sure she took "no chances" with baby Apollo.
She added: "Whilst I could get pregnant, there was no explanation for why I couldn’t keep them.
"The Dr’s took no chances with Apollo. I injected countless, endless hormones into my belly to keep my placenta working. He signifies everything good in the world to me, my miracle.
"To my friends and Mamas who have experienced this, you are the strongest women I know. Thinking of you today❤"
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Myleene - who is currently training for next years Dancing On Ice competition - shares her two daughters, mum to Ava, 12, and eight-year-old Hero with her ex-husband Graham Quinn.
The Hear'Say star welcomed baby boy Apollo, who she shares with PR executive Simon Motson, into the world in August 2019.
Last month the happy couple announced that they got engaged on the day of their 5 year anniversary.
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Speaking about her engagement ring, she told fans: "I spend most of my day just staring at this around my finger.
"I love everything it stands for, what it means for us to have made it together, what it took to get here in the first place and ultimately, because it's unique, super rare and was made with friendship and love."