Big Brother’s axed housemate Trish breaks her silence in first interview since ‘racist and homophobic’ tweet scandal
BIG Brother's axed housemate Trish has broken her silence in her first interview since her 'racist and homophobic' tweets were exposed.
The popular housemate chatted to as she admitted her "shock" at reading the vile messages back.
Trish Balusa left the Big Brother house to a sea of cheers and people chanting "Trish for the win" but things took a dramatic turn just 24 hours later when some were left demanding the shock evictee be 'cancelled' after the messages were exposed.
A self-confessed feminist, the views expressed on her social media accounts appeared to completely go against the persona she had shown in the house where she was quick to react to injustice and speak her mind.
Now, Trish has told the publication of her 'regret' at sending out the posts.
She said: "You know, I was so shocked.
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"I think for the first time, I looked in the mirror and I saw in myself, the people that I criticise and the things that I stand against."
After the messages were revealed, Trish issued a public apology in which she took accountability for the things she said and insisted that she no longer held such views.
She was quickly axed from a scheduled appearance on ITV2 spin-off Late and Live in the wake of the revelations.
Trish added of the situation: "You express a view [on social media] and then you're done you move on from it, and then maybe you learn, you change, challenge yourself, you gain different experiences," she notes.
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"You don't get to go back and elaborate on that view.
"You don't get to go back and say: 'actually, according to my experiences now or the people I've learned that people have educated me, this is what I think now'".
Trish also admitted that she would be forced to have conversations with some of her closest friends from the House after they leave as she acknowledged they fell into the "marginalised groups" she had previously targeted.
Referencing Yinrun, Henry, Jordan and Matty, Trish added: "I'm going to have to have a conversation with Yinrun.
"I'm going to have to have a conversation with Jordan, Henry, Matty - I'm going to have to have a conversation with all of them actually, because, as I said, you write something and you move on from it.
"You're no longer aligned with even thinking or having those thoughts in your head that when it comes back, it's such a shock and you have to have a think about the people it does affect in your life."
Trish also admitted her heartbreak over how her posts had affected her brother who is openly transgender.
She explained her guilt at 'letting him down' as she said: "I was really apologetic, I was like: 'I've let you down because we've come so far through this journey' and I have to look back at that person, someone that's very close to me, someone that's in a community, they're going to have to look at that."
"This is a conversation I'm going to have to have with a lot of people who are in those marginalised group that are hurt by the comments that I had made in the past.
"Hopefully, I could rely on the fact that they know my heart. They know who I am."
She went onto insist that the person TV audiences fell in love with was the real her as she insisted she could not "fake" being something she was not.
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The mum-of-one said: "I love the support, I love that people can give me grace. But I also get that there are some people who this is still very new to them.
"I do want to remind people that I couldn't fake who I was on Big Brother for that long."
