AGT’s Nightbirde admits she’s ‘raging and crying’ after being forced to quit show and miss finals due to cancer battle
AGT'S Nightbirde revealed her feelings after dropping out of the competition: "this isn't how the story was supposed to go."
Nightbirde, whose real name is Jane Marczewski, withdrew from the show to focus on her cancer battle.
The singer took to Instagram yesterday to share her grief following the show's finale, which she was predicted to be in.
The 30-year-old posted a video of a bunch of balloons floating away in the sky over the ocean.
She's heard talking to someone in the background saying: "How many more wishes do we get?
"Is this like compounding the wishes we already made, or are these individual wishes?"
The former contestant reflected on her experience on the talent series in the caption writing: "It’s so hard for me to not be on the @agt stage for the finals this week.
"I bet you never saw someone win so hard and lose so hard at the same time. This isn’t how the story was supposed to go."
She continued the post, talking about her faith in God and hopes for the future.
"I spend a lot of time squeezing my eyes shut and trying to remember what I believe; counting my breaths in the grief cloud; burying my face into God’s t-shirt.
Simon told Jane: “Hello, Jane... Well, we’ve spoken a few times, and look, you made the decision, rightly so, that your health is your priority right now. And I know that the last time we spoke, you actually said you feel like you let people down. Well, I just want to say on behalf of all of us, you haven’t let anyone down."
The interview was the singer's first public appearance since she announced on Instagram Monday she had dropped out of after her health prognosis worsened.
However, Nightbirde confirmed: "I'm not a quitter. So it was really, really hard for me to say that I couldn't finish the show. I got shocking news less than a week ago about cancer regrowth that has taken over my lungs and liver. So my liver right now is mostly cancer. More cancer than liver in there right now.
"But like I said, I'm planning my future, not my legacy. Some people would call that blind denial. I prefer to call it rebellious hope. And I'm not stopping anytime soon."
A show source subsequently told The Sun: "Simon called Jane personally when he heard the news.
She wrote alongside a black and white photo of herself: "Sharing my heart with the world on AGT has been an honor and a dream come true. My point of view this summer has been astounding.
"What a miracle that the pain I’ve walked through can be reworked into beauty that makes people all over the world open their eyes wider."
Simon recently told that he thinks Nightbirde would have if she stayed in the competition.
"Would she have won tonight? I think she probably would, actually," the AGT judge said. "And I think she knows that deep down."
"Having said that, she knows she made the right decision," he added.
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