Lilith the Cenobite said she felt food was 'forbidden' as a teen - but a shock terminal diagnosis meant she decided to eat 'as much as she possibly could' as she 'is dying in a few years'
A NUDE model has gorged on burgers and junk food to put on 21 STONE in just three years in bizarre bid to become the world’s heaviest woman.
Known only as Lilith the Cenobite, the web model says some people see her as a "goddess" and she hopes to one day be the heaviest woman ever in the Guinness Book of World Records.
The 26-year-old from Faial, Azores, grew up in a poor background where food was hard to come by and struggled with an eating disorder in her teens, seeing food as "a forbidden thing that shouldn't be enjoyed".
The fear and guilt Lilith associated with food disappeared when she was diagnosed with terminal hepatic encephalopathy in 2015 as a result of complications from a rare condition she was born with.
This shock diagnosis changed her way of thinking about food and she discovered the feedism community online which involves gaining weight to fulfil a sexual fetish.
And Lilith - who insists that she only eats when a feeder feeds her or provides her with food to eat - has piled on 21st 6lb in just three years going from 8st to her current weight of 29st 10lb.
She is now aiming to go down in history by becoming the heaviest living woman and heaviest woman ever in the Guinness Book of World Records.
The current record for the heaviest living woman is 45st 13lb and the record for heaviest ever woman is 85st.
She explained: “If you’re a feedee, it’s a fetish involving eating, stuffing, and gaining weight.
"If you’re a feeder, it’s a fetish around feeding someone, stuffing them and helping them gain weight. I literally don’t eat anything at all unless it is provided to me by a feeder.
“I grew up homeless so food was hard to come by. If someone ever fed me, it was done out of love. I also spent most my life with anorexia, food was this great big forbidden thing that existed just to torment me."
She continued: “A few years ago when I found out I was terminal, I decided to indulge in my guilty little secret, and eat as much as I possibly could.
“I want to gain. Break records. Leave behind something historic. My weight gain, weight loss, and weight stagnation are all beyond my control.
“Given that I only eat if and when someone chooses to feed me, my weight is entirely at the whim of the feedism community. Hopefully I get fed enough to reach my goal.
“As a web model and video star, many of my fans watch because they like the fact I keep growing," she said.
Lilith also hit back at people who might criticise her lifestyle and spoke out about body positivity to other larger ladies.
She said: “You can’t use my health as a reason, because I’m dying in a few years anyway.
"You can’t use state assistance as a reason because I’m not on it. You can’t use my looks as a reason because I’m seen as a goddess to loads of people out there.
“So there are no valid reasons to complain, just admit you don’t like fat people.
“A lot more people are into BBW - Big Beautiful Women - and SSBBW - Super-Sized Big Beautiful Women - than you think. Most just keep it to themselves. There are millions out there who’d love to look like you, or date you.”
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