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Woman who gouged out her own eyes while high on meth ‘loves sleep because her dreams are like she can see again’

Kaylee Muthart, 20, permanently blinded herself using just her hands when she thought God was calling on her to make a gruesome 'sacrifice'

A WOMAN who gouged out her own eyes while high on crystal meth has revealed she loves sleep because "it's like being able to see again".

Kaylee Muthart, 20, permanently blinded herself using just her hands, after she thought she heard God calling on her to make a gruesome “sacrifice”.

 Kaylee, 20, gouged out her eyes using just her hands while high on meth
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Kaylee, 20, gouged out her eyes using just her hands while high on methCredit: GoFundMe

Kaylee, from South Carolina, was heard screaming outside the South Main Chapel and Mercy Centre on February 6 this year.

When parishioners ran out they found her holding her eyeballs in her hands and desperately tried to restrain her.

Now, following emergency surgery to clean her empty orbital sockets and undergoing treatment in hospital and a psychiatric facility, Kaylee says she "actually feels like a person".

She told  : “My dreams are colorful, and it’s like being able to see again - I like sleeping a lot because it’s like I can see.”

 Kaylee, pictured with her older sister, says her colourful dreams are 'like being able to see again'
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Kaylee, pictured with her older sister, says her colourful dreams are 'like being able to see again'Credit: //www.gofundme.com/551e4j4
 She said: 'I gripped each eyeball, twisted, and pulled until each eye popped out of the socket — it felt like a massive struggle, the hardest thing I ever had to do'
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She said: 'I gripped each eyeball, twisted, and pulled until each eye popped out of the socket — it felt like a massive struggle, the hardest thing I ever had to do'Credit: Facebook
 Kaylee, pictured above with family, was found screaming outside a chapel with her eyes in her hands in February this year
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Kaylee, pictured above with family, was found screaming outside a chapel with her eyes in her hands in February this year
 She had surgery to clean out her empty eye sockets and underwent psychiatric care
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She had surgery to clean out her empty eye sockets and underwent psychiatric careCredit: Facebook

She continued:"I feel like myself, and I don’t feel like I’m chasing something.

"It actually feels really nice.

"The way it worked out is the way God had it work out, that’s just the way it is… but I’d rather for it to have happened than to still be stuck in that world."

The young woman has also participated in mobility and orientation training that has helped her become more independent - but she admits "feeling moments of considerable sadness".

Kaylee said:"I’m a very optimistic person and I went in with an optimistic outlook - but at some points, you’re going to fall down.. That’s just life."

 Kaylee said she now hopes to go to college to study marine biology
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Kaylee said she now hopes to go to college to study marine biology
 Parishioners from South Main Chapel and Mercy Centre heard Kaylee screaming outside after she gouged out her eyeballs
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Parishioners from South Main Chapel and Mercy Centre heard Kaylee screaming outside after she gouged out her eyeballsCredit: Google Earth
 Kaylee says she doesn't 'feel like she's chasing something' any more
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Kaylee says she doesn't 'feel like she's chasing something' any more

She said: "There’s definitely something inside of me that wants to say, ‘Well, what else can I do now that I’m blind?’

"But something just cries out deep inside of me, ‘Go for your goal. Do what you’ve always wanted to do. Show everybody that you can do it.’"

Previously, she explained to how she ripped out her eyeballs in the drug-addled haze.

She said: “I gripped each eyeball, twisted, and pulled until each eye popped out of the socket — it felt like a massive struggle, the hardest thing I ever had to do.”

Worried worshippers then emerged from the church after hearing her screaming: “I want to see the light!”

She said the pastor later told her that by the time he reached her she was holding both her eyes in her hands.

Kaylee said: “I had squished them, although they were somehow still attached to my head.”


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