Skydiver who SURVIVED fall from 14,000ft when his parachute failed reveals dark months that followed battling guilt and depression from his bed
Brad Guy reveals he 'knew he was going to die' as he fell to earth after his parachute failed
A DAREDEVIL who survived a skydiving accident which saw him crash to the ground from 14,000ft has told how the ordeal left him wracked with guilt and deeply depressed.
After leaping out of a plane with his instructor, thrill-seeking Brad Guy's chute ripped after opening at 4,000ft and he was left spiralling helplessly towards the ground.
He told the : “We were shaking so much, it was like we were in a blender.”
Brad was reportedly thrown around so violently that his tightly-laced shoe came flying off.
At 500ft, his backup chute also failed after getting tangled in the shredded remains of the first one as he continued to plummet towards earth.
He said: “It didn’t really feel like I was falling to the ground, more like the ground was coming to hit me, like the earth was coming to smack me.
“Your life does flash before your eyes but I didn’t look back on things in my life, I looked forward.”
His horrified family could only watch as the then 21-year-old plummeted from the sky after his parachute failed to what they thought was a "certain death."
The adventurous Melbourne man thought the same, and his body and mind prepared for the end.
Somehow Brad miraculously survived the terrifying plunge after making a relatively soft landing in a lake at a golf club.
Brad's fall was also broken by his instructor, who he was strapped to and who also survived.
Although he was hospitalised and left unable to move for a while, he was considered incredibly lucky to be alive by most.
But lying in hospital bed Brad soon began falling into a deep, dark depression.
Even after being discharged - fitted with a neck and back brace and unable to move unassisted, shower or groom himself - Brad was sucked into a downward spiral.
He told :“For four or five months I was just in my room. I wouldn’t even know what time of day it was because the curtains were closed and the door was locked.
“Every time mum and dad would come in I’d just yell at them and tell them to leave me alone. I put myself in this isolation and just kind of wallowed.”
He said: “They were all there so they witnessed everything, and I just felt so accountable for what I’d done to myself and for what I put them through.
“I think that’s where a lot of the self-loathing was generated. Everything was internalised and I didn’t reach out for help, so it got harder rather than getting better.”
Along with the anger and depression came the triggers and “immersive flashbacks” started to invade Brad’s dreams.
Describing the 2103 accident, Brad says he saw “death right in front of me”, and thanks to nightmares and flashbacks he began reliving the horror almost every night.
He revealed: “The night terrors were pretty much nightly and started off as pertaining to the accident — reliving that.
“They eventually just evolved into watching myself die, seeing my family die or being helpless."
Brad was reluctant to address his problems because he didn't want to become a burden on those around him.
He had been strongly encouraged to take up counselling after the accident but didn’t feel like it.
He didn’t want to leave the house and didn’t want to have to make someone drive him to the therapist.
But after his then partner and parents convinced him to go, he never looked back.
He said: “It was really hard and it got harder, but after about the fourth or fifth session I thought, 'I should keep doing this, it’s the only way'.
“While it was confronting to face my fears I knew the greater good and the outcome was what I really desired as well.”
After finding a psychologist and then psychiatrist that understood his needs, Brad began unpacking what he had been through and gained some understanding of how it had affected him.
He was diagnosed with a nightmare disorder, anxiety, depression and, most surprising to him, post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD).
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Brad explained: “PTSD is one of those things where your brain is just hardwired differently for the rest of your life.
“They way I put it in an analogy for people is I was broken down into a million pieces and when you fill all those pieces together, sometimes they’ll be broken or they’re not going to fit. You have to break everything down and try and build it back up again.”
Brad is now using his experience to open a conversation about PTSD and mental health via his YouTube channel, and hopes to spread the message further.
Since sharing his experience in an emotional video recently, Brad says he was surprised and encouraged by the number of people who had contacted him thanking him for starting the conversation and said they were going through the same thing.
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