Helen Bailey’s mum reveals she wishes she ‘was gone too’ as murder of children’s author by money-grabbing fiance Ian Stewart has caused ‘unimaginable pain’
THE MUM of murdered author Helen Bailey has revealed she sometimes wishes she "was gone" too.
Distraught Eileen Bailey, 89, said her and husband George, 91, are in pieces since the cold-blooded killing of their daughter.
And their grief has sharpened since the guilty verdict of money-grabbing murderer, former partner Ian Stewart.
Speaking to , Eileen said dementia-sufferer George weeps when he sees his daughter's picture.
“George sees photos of Helen and cries out in pain at the loss", she said.
“There are memories of her everywhere. It has been very hard."
The "wicked" widower, whose arrest was filmed by cops, killed her in an attempt to get his hands on her £3million fortune, police said.
Much of the Electra Brown author's estate had been trustingly signed over to him in her will.
Former friends of Stewart's have told The Sun he was also driven mad by Helen's precious Dachshund Boris.
And now police are investigating the sudden death of his first wife, mum-of-two Diane.
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Eileen added: “We know now what happened with the death of his first wife and that he is under suspicion.
“But no matter what happens to him, whatever sentence he gets, it will not bring Helen back.
"The pain of the loss is unimaginable".
Heartbroken friends of the much-loved writer have also told of their grief.
Speaking in a Channel 5 documentary: Murdered By My Fiance to be aired on Thursday night, friend and neighbour Margaret Holsen sobbed: “Right until the last moment, I was hoping she would still be found alive.
'He sent shivers down my spine'
BY AMY JONES, SUN WRITER
WHEN I began investigating Helen’s disappearance I told cops of Stewart’s strange and worrying behaviour.
Speaking to neighbours in Royston, Herts, I was met with a wall of silence that disturbs me to this day.
Most claimed Stewart had told them not to talk to the press. It sent a shiver down my spine even then.
Didn’t he want to know where she was?
When I called on Stewart himself, he slammed the door on me without a word.
And in Broadstairs, Kent — where they had a second home and where Stewart claimed Helen had gone — things took an even more sinister twist.
Nobody had seen her. They had seen him, though, and said he seemed more concerned with what cops knew than where Helen was.
Alarm bells rang again. Stewart was building a wall of silence intended to hide his guilt.
These were not the actions of a devoted man in fear for his loved one’s safety.
The truth was hidden in plain sight.
“That’s all you can do is hope.
“The worst thing we could have feared had happened.
“It really impacted on me, and it still does, because I’ve been texting her, trying to get her to contact me only to find that there she was about 40 yards away from me.”
Police had knocked at the homes of neighbours and friends in the attempts to find Ms Bailey, having been told by Stewart that she had left him a note saying she needed some time alone and would be staying at her Broadstairs home.
But it was all part of a ruse to divert detectives from the truth.
Stewart had been feeding his victim his own sleeping pills before killing her - likely by smothering.
But in a horrific twist jurors heard that Helen may still have been alive when she was dumped in the cesspit below their garage.
Stewart, branded a "full blown liar" by cops, now faces up to life in prison.
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