Depressed mum, 33, told her kids ‘mummy’s head got too sad’ in heartbreaking final message before she hanged herself
A DEPRESSED mum told her kids "mummy's head got too sad" in a heartbreaking final message before she took her own life, an inquest heard.
Amie Collier, 33, sent Anthony Clay an eight-minute video explaining why she was giving up on fighting her depression and said she felt like a "bad mum" due to her condition.
The PR executive told him it was unlikely he would ever understand the full extent of her illness.
Her final test to Anthony said: "Please forgive me for leaving my children. Tell them I love them so much but that mummy’s head got too sad.
"Please make sure they are well looked after and my mum is kept safe and well.”
Anthony was shopping with their daughter when he raced home after receiving the message on July 16.
Amie was found hanged in her bathroom before she was rushed to hospital, but died six days later.
The video only emerged after Amie to her own life.
Anthony wept as the entire video message was read out by a coroner at an inquest in Bolton, Greater Manchester.
In it the message Amie , from Wigan, said she "tried everything" to combat her depression.
It continued: "You’re constantly reminded that you’re a bad mum because someone is better.
"I don’t know where the demon has come from, I don’t know where it started - I just know I’m a sorry case."
Please forgive me for leaving my children. Tell them I love them so much but that mummy’s head got too sad. Please make sure they are well looked after and my mum is kept safe and well.
Amie's last message
The hearing was told Amie had been grieving over the death of her stepfather Graham, and she had been seeking counselling through the Marines, but drinking heavily at home.
Anthony told the inquest: "Everywhere she would go, she would be the heart and the soul of the party.
";She was the star who walked in the room but I knew from living alongside her that smile wasn’t always the case."
Anthony said that after her son was born she was "wasn't 100 per cent" and she "had researched what to do and to go and speak to someone".
Anthony told the inquest the day before she took her own life that Amie asked him to take their daughter out because "she just wanted a minute for herself".
He continued: "The next day we were in Superdry at the Trafford Centre when I got the text from Amie.
"I bundled my daughter under my arm got in the car and went back. It is supposed to take 40 minutes I think I got back in about 25.
"The keys were in the door when we got back and my daughter was just following me as I went round into the back garden. I rang the police as my thoughts were she’s not in the house.
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"My Marine training in terms of preservation of life kicked in and I did CPR on Amy.”
A statement from an unnamed GP said Amie had seen them for anxiety and low mood, and was prescribed anti-depressants - during one visit she said she was having thoughts about self-harm.
Recording a conclusion of suicide, coroner Catherine Cundy said: “I’m satisfied that her video message indicated that events going back many years had led to her depression with which she felt she could no longer cope."
- IF you are having suicidal thoughts, suffering from anxiety or depression or just want to talk, call The Samaritans on 116 123.
