I discovered my partner was a paedophile – the footage I found made me want to rip my skin off

WAVES of revulsion filled the pit of Rosie Nelson's stomach as she slotted the SD card into her laptop and an image of a blonde little boy flashed onto the screen.

No older than ten, the boy was being forced into grotesque sexual acts by a woman, a sickening sight and one which instantly ripped Rosie's ordinary life apart.

That's because horrifyingly, the card belonged to her partner of four years, Peter Loram, a man who she loved deeply and one who had taken on the role as 'step dad' to her 15-year old son Ollie*.

Only now, he was far from being the loving partner she was certain she knew - Loram, 42, was in fact a secret paedophile, and he was due to arrive back at the family home at any moment.

Recalling the horrifying discovery, Rosie, 52, says: “A little box popped up and it was a little boy with blonde hair doing something with a woman.

"I must have seen approximately two seconds of the footage and I will never forget it for as long as I live. Ever.

"I felt so disgusting and unclean. If I could have peeled off my skin and bleached it I would have.

“He was extremely young."

Heart racing, Rosie immediately took the SD card out of the computer.

“I convinced myself I just hadn’t seen it right, that there must have been something else to it and it had to be some kind of joke," she says.

“I was so shocked and appalled by what I had seen."

Unable to comprehend what she'd unearthed, Rosie reinserted the card to be certain and that's when the whole earth-shattering truth unravelled - her partner had been living an unimaginable double life.

There wasn't just one photo, the card was packed full with indecent images and videos, but Loram hasn't served a day behind bars for his heinous crimes.

"I felt physically sick," says Rosie. “All I could think about was those poor children and I just couldn’t believe I had been with someone like that."

When divorcee Rosie began exchanging messages with Loram, 42, on dating site Plenty of Fish back in 2016, there were no red flags.

I convinced myself I just hadn’t seen it right, that there must have been something else to it and it had to be some kind of joke.

Rosie Nelson

A lover of animals, Rosie, whose first marriage lasted 17 years, described him as being a ‘gentle giant’, if not a a little too good to be true.

“What attracted me to him initially was his love of the outdoors, I really liked that,” she says.

“He was gentle and he seemed to be a really nice person.

“On our first date we went up to Holden, which is a beautiful area in Devon, for a walk and a coffee.

“I came away with the impression that he was this gentle giant, just a really beautiful nature, loving and kind-hearted soul."

Rosie recalls the relationship moving "quite steadily from there" and six weeks in, after introducing Loram to her parents, he met her son.

“I didn’t introduce them for quite a long time,” Rosie, a hypnotherapist, adds.

“When they did meet I don't think Ollie was particularly interested, and Pete didn't seem particularly interested either.

“It didn’t matter to me, and as far as I was concerned, Ollie had and has got an incredible father already, so he didn't need another.

“The introduction was more for me, I wanted to find somebody I could settle down with."

Nine months later, Loram and Rosie talked about moving in together, an arrangement which Rosie says her son was happy with.

I noticed that the card reader was in a box with old chargers and MP3 players, again I found that odd, why would it be in there?

Rosie Nelson

Speaking as part of Life Stories, Fabulous’ new which documents the extraordinary lives of ordinary people, Rosie explains: “Initially it was a very happy relationship.

“But of course we can all say in hindsight, I think that we were still quite separate in a lot of ways but everything seemed perfectly normal.”

That was until May 2020, days after the couple's fourth anniversary, when Rosie made her horrifying discovery and her life with Loram was crushed.