AFTER the toughest of pregnancies, which saw her battling debilitating sickness, Leona Lewis was hoping for some respite after the birth.
But although the nausea finally subsided, postpartum anxiety set in, and the former X Factor winner found herself consumed with worry in the months that followed baby Carmel’s arrival last July.
“It was very, very hard,” she says.
“I’d get myself really worked up about whether she was eating enough, or if she was OK. I was so drained, so tired and then I’d have these anxious thoughts that kept me up, so I wasn’t ever able to rest. When she was napping, I’d be watching her instead of catching up on sleep. And the lack of sleep made things even worse.
“I’d been so sick throughout the whole pregnancy, I could hardly get out of bed. That went on literally up until she was born, so it [had already been] a lot, both physically and emotionally.”
The pressure grew so overwhelming that Leona, 38, went to counselling to help manage her feelings.
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“I spoke to a counsellor, which was a big help to me,” she says, speaking from her home in LA close to the studio where we shot her for these stunning images.
“It’s so important if you can speak to someone about it. I spoke to my friends and mums about how I was feeling, and just knowing I wasn’t alone made such a difference.
“I worked on trying to carve out little moments when I could take a breath and have a break and rely on other people to help. But it took two or three months for it to simmer down and for me to start feeling like myself again. Motherhood has been such a wild, crazy ride.”
Leona’s personal experience during pregnancy and beyond is one of the reasons she’s backing our Baby, Bank On Us campaign, launched in partnership with Save The Children, Little Village and baby banks across the UK.
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The community-focused initiative is calling on the public to volunteer their time and donate second-hand children’s items to their nearest baby bank.
It also aims to raise awareness of the vital work baby banks do and the benefits they bring to families, especially during a cost of living crisis, which is impacting households across the country.
Leona says she was inspired to help after realising how much she needed to lean on other people to carry her through those incredibly challenging first few months.
She wanted to find a way to help fellow mums who didn’t have the same support network or who couldn’t easily afford the essentials, such as nappies, clothes, slings, toys and prams.
“I was so lucky that I had a lot of support around me. And it made me think about the women who don’t have that, or don’t have access to it. I just want to do anything I can to help – since becoming a mum, my heart opens up to every mum I meet. I’m like: ‘Oh, I love you!’
“When Fabulous got in touch about Baby, Bank On Us, it felt perfect. This is exactly what I want to do. I’m fortunate enough to afford the necessities, but there are so many women and children who are not in the same position.”
Leona grew up in Hackney, east London, where many low-income families struggled, giving her a real understanding of what life is like below the poverty line, as well as first-hand knowledge about just how vulnerable this makes those children.
She might live a very comfortable life in Los Angeles now, but Leona’s deep sense of community was instilled in her by both parents – her mum Maria was a social worker for many years, while her dad Joe worked as a youth offending officer and now volunteers at a food bank – and burns bright to this day.
She says: “I grew up around that sense of supporting people and that feeds into the work I do now. I’ve always felt we need to use what we have to help others, especially if you’re in a position where you can.
“Even people who are working full-time can’t afford food at the moment. My dad sees this happening – he talks to me about the people he’s meeting day-to-day and it’s desperate out there right now.”
It’s been 17 years since Leona became an overnight superstar on The X Factor, winning the show and going on to have a No.1 debut album on both sides of the Atlantic.
Her biggest-selling single Bleeding Love topped the charts in 35 countries in 2008. She has sold more than 35 million records worldwide and is a three-times Grammy nominee.
Still as softly spoken, thoughtful and sweet-natured as she was back then, Leona admits now she was utterly unprepared for the cut and thrust of the often-brutal music industry.
She had no idea just how quickly and completely life was going to change as she was swept away in the post-X Factor madness.
“I was not prepared at all. I just loved to sing and didn’t think that it would ever take me to where it has. I recently did [American talk show] The Jennifer Hudson Show and they showed a little clip of me from back then and, oh my god! I first entered when I was 19 – I was just a baby.”
By 2014, Leona was at breaking point. She’d released four albums in eight years under Simon Cowell’s Syco label, but felt increasingly at odds with her record industry bosses.
They had been pushing for her to release a covers album, which Leona felt would compromise what she stood for as an artist, and so she took the brave decision to walk away, later writing an open letter to fans, in which she admitted to having been “extremely depressed” over the previous 12 months.
She described reaching a place where “the downs were outweighing the ups”.
Looking back, she says she was absolutely terrified.
“As a young woman working with a big, powerful label, it was one of the scariest things I’ve ever done,” she says.
“It meant jumping into the abyss and seeing where I landed. But I’ve always acted with integrity, and I knew the songs I wanted to sing and the emotions I wanted to convey, and I knew that it just wasn’t working.
“And sometimes you have to walk away from things, even though that’s hard. It was like a relationship that you probably shouldn’t be in any more, but you stay in it, despite the fact that it doesn’t feel quite right, because it’s hard to break away.
“And I’m so glad I did, because I got to go on a different journey and stay true to myself. And I felt very empowered as a woman after taking that decision. I didn’t let fear hold me back and that felt very powerful to me. It helped to build my confidence, which I really needed at that time.”
Leona signed with Island Records and went on to release 2015 album I Am. She insists there are no hard feelings with Simon Cowell and, nearly a decade on, their relationship has never been better.
“I love Simon. Like anything, you go through things and sometimes they make you stronger. He’s been there a lot for me and we have a really good relationship now, one that has blossomed throughout the years and especially since he had [his son] Eric.
“He’s always very supportive of my projects and he’s a really good guy. When Coco [Leona’s nickname for daughter Carmel] was born, he sent me a beautiful frame, which I’ve got her sonogram picture in, so it’s really sweet.”
But despite Leona and Simon’s close ties, several former X Factor contestants, including Katie Waissel and Cher Lloyd, have called into question the duty of care on the show, which was officially cancelled in 2021, after 17 years on air.
Leona says, if it hadn’t been for the support of her tight-knit family, she may well have struggled to cope.
“My parents have always been really strong figures in my life and were at every single show I’d ever done since I was 10 years old. Even after I won The X Factor, it was their mission to be at every show, somehow.
“And honestly, if it hadn’t been for them, I don’t know what I would have done, because they were there to back me up all the time. I can’t speak on other people’s experiences because I don’t know what support they had around them.
“But I also had a really great management team. My manager Nicola Carson, who I first met in The X Factor house, has been with me from that day to now, and I feel really lucky to have had that.”
Away from the spotlight, Leona has settled in LA, where she has lived for several years with choreographer husband Dennis Jauch, 34.
She runs Coffee And Plants, a plant-based coffee shop with two sites.
Admittedly, life sounds pretty idyllic, although she does say that London will always be home.
“I get to go back and forth a lot. I have the freedom to go home and see my family and be back here [in LA] when I need to. My husband’s work is here, so that’s a big factor as well.
"I see myself as living in both places. I enjoy the nature, the lifestyle and the sun of LA, and I have a big creative community with lots of musicians and singers and I really love that. But home for me will always be London.”
Leona and Dennis, who is German, met back in 2010 when he was a dancer on her tour. They married in Tuscany nine years later.
“I’ve always been so close to my mum and dad, but now Dennis and I have our own little family unit, which is so beautiful,” says Leona. “Having Coco has definitely brought us closer. We’re a family now and I’m just enjoying that so much.
“Every day there’s something new with Coco, which is amazing. I put her hair in a little ponytail for the first time today. It’s only about five strands of hair, but I love it! She’s very opinionated and knows what she wants and it’s so funny seeing her little personality coming through.”
How has motherhood changed Leona?
“I’ve become laser-focused instead of splitting my time and energy between a million different things. I don’t want to miss anything, so I have to be really conscious of what I choose to put my energy into.”
That means focusing on passion projects, like her sustainable cafes – for every 100 cups of coffee sold, they plant a tree with the National Forest Foundation, and profits help fund Hopefield Animal Sanctuary in Essex.
She also recently recorded One Step Closer, the theme song to AppleTV+ series Jane and as far as a new album goes, she’s “back in the studio” and “in the process of creating and seeing where I want to go to next.”
Plus, a UK Christmas With Love tour is scheduled for this winter.
Stepping off the hamster wheel and learning to be choosy has helped Leona find some much-needed balance in life. Although she admits motherhood has inevitably tipped it off kilter again.
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“When the baby came along, it was a bit like: ‘OK, now I need to do another recheck!’
“But the work-life balance is definitely better. It’s not perfect and I’m still working on it and figuring it out, but I’m in a place where it’s a lot more settled than it was before.”
FABULOUS' BABY BANK ON US CAMPAIGN
THE cost of living crisis has left many families with young kids struggling. To help, Fabulous is launching Baby, Bank On Us, in partnership with Save The Children, Little Village and baby banks across the UK.
The initiative has three aims:
- Increasing local support by calling on the public to volunteer time and donate items to their nearest baby bank.
- Raising vital funds to support the work of baby banks.
- Uniting baby banks across the UK by increasing understanding and raising awareness of the vital work they do, and the benefits this brings families. Plus, improving resource sharing.
How you can help:
- Give clothing, toys and essentials to a baby bank, wherever you are in the UK.
- Give your time volunteering.
To find your nearest baby bank, visit .
What are baby banks?
Baby banks provide essential items for babies and young children whose parents are living in poverty – including nappies, wipes, clothing, bedding, Moses baskets, cots, blankets, toys and books.
There are over 200 baby banks in the UK, and they run out of shops, community centres, warehouse units and even people’s living rooms and garages.
Last year 4.2 million children in the UK were living in poverty and 800,000 children lived in a household that used a food or baby bank.
BABY BANK LOCATIONS
BELOW is a selection of baby banks by region. See the web address at the end of the page to find contact details for all the country’s baby banks
- North West
Baby Basics Bolton & Bury, West Lancashire
Baby Basics Carlisle, Cumbria
Baby Basics South Lakes, Cumbria
Baby Basics, Cleator Moor, West Cumbria
Trafford Little Bundles, Lancashire
TippyToes BabyBank Preston, Lancashire
Salford Baby Bank, Lancashire
Snowdrop Doula CIC Burnley, Lancashire
Cascade Baby Bundles, Audenshaw, Cheshire
The Baby Room at Spinners, Leigh, Lancashire
The Healthy Gems Baby Bank, Oldham, Lancashire
NCT Mid Cheshire
NCT Preston Baby Bundles, Lancashire
KidsBank Chester, Cheshire
Motherwell Pass It On Baby Bank, Winsford, Cheshire
Hyndburn Baby Bank, Accrington, Lancashire
- North East
Growbaby Newcastle, Tyne & Wear
Love, Amelia, Sunderland, Tyne & Wear
Birth Bath and Beyond, Scarborough, North Yorkshire
Clothe and Feed South Shields, Tyne & Wear
Clothe and Feed Sunderland, Tyne & Wear
Rosie's Corner, Hexham, Northumberland
Stockton Baby Bank, County Durham
Darlington Baby Bank, County Durham
Baby Basics Darlington
Growbaby Hull, Yorkshire
Little Acorns Baby Bank Durham, County Durham
Hartlepool Baby Bank, County Durham
- North
Growbaby Teeside, Thornaby, Stockton-on-Tees
Baby Basics Leeds, West Yorkshire
Baby Basics Doncaster, South Yorkshire
Leeds Baby Bank, West Yorkshire
Baby Basics Sheffield, South Yorkshire
Birth Bath and Beyond Scarborough, North Yorkshire
Bradford Baby Bank, West Yorkshire
POPI Baby Bank Keighley, West Yorkshire
Rainbow Baby Bank Heckmondwike, West Yorkshire
Stepping Stones Baby Bank Wakefield, West Yorkshire
Calderdale Lighthouse, West Yorkshire
Tiny Hands Baby Bank Pontefract, West Yorkshire
Growbaby York, North Yorkshire
- South West
Ashley's Birthday Bank, Christchurch, Dorset
Baby Bank Network Bristol
Baby Basics Gloucester, Gloucestershire
Baby Basics Cornwall
Baby Basics Plymouth
Brighter Bristol Storehouse, Bristol
Baby Basics South, Ilminster, Somerset
Growbaby Tiverton, Devon
Children's Storehouse Plymouth, Devon
Uplift Tiverton, Devon
Exeter Baby Bank Network, Devon
Little Lighthouse Baby Bank Wythenshawe, Manchester
Baby Bundles Wiltshire
The Nest Project, Bath, Somerset
Gloucestershire Bundles, Gloucester
Open Door Exmouth, Devon
Forest of Dean Baby Bank, Gloucestershire
Small Stuff Baby Bank, Radstock, Somerset
Stroud District Kid's Stuff, Gloucestershire
Teignmouth Baby Bank, Devon
Ten Little Toes Baby Bank, Cowfold, West Sussex
Growbaby Swindon, Wiltshire
- South East
Baby Bank & Beyond (South Wealden) CIC (Hellingly), East Sussex
Sebby's Corner Borehamwood, Hertfordshire
Stevenage Babyshed, Hertfordshire
Baby Basics Billericay, Essex
Growbaby Whitstable, Kent
Growbaby Aylesbury, Bucks
Baby Basics Bromley, Kent
Best Start Baby Bank, Eastbourne, Sussex
Basildon Borough Baby Bank, Essex
Growbaby Maidstone, Kent
Growbaby Rayleigh, Essex
Baby Basics Chelmsford, Essex
Growbaby St Albans, Herts
Growbaby Hemel Hempstead, Herts
Precious Bundles Colchester, Essex
Fighting Chance Baby Bank, Petworth, West Sussex
Baby2Baby, East Sussex
Baby Basics Brighton
Baby Basics Dover & Deal, Kent
Baby Basics Englefield Green, Surrey
Baby Basics Folkestone, Kent
Baby Basics Willvern, Essex
First Days Reading, Berkshire
Baby Basics Hastings and Rother, East Sussex
Baby Basics, Grays, Kent
Baby Basics Shoreham, West Sussex
NCT Winchester Baby Bundles, Hampshire
NCT Woking Baby Bundles, Surrey
Pelican Parcels Brighton and Hove, Sussex
Baby Stuff Braintree, Essex
Tots 2 Teens Colchester baby bank, Essex
Stripey Stork, Reigate, Surrey
Sunshine Baby Bank Southend, Essex
The Baby Bank HQ Havering, Essex
The Baby Bank HQ Thurrock, Essex
Community Wardrobe Chelmsford, Essex
The Baby Bank Windsor, Berkshire
Growbaby Storehouse Ashford, Kent
Moses Basket Brentwood, Essex,
Growbaby Chelmsford, Essex
NCT Little Bundles Baby Bank Chichester & Arun, West Sussex
NCT Baby Bundles Sevenoaks and Tonbridge, Kent
Mama to Mama, Margate, Kent
Home-Start West Berkshire Baby Bank, Newbury, Berkshire
Growbaby, Wokingham, Berkshire
The Baby Bank HQ Barking, Dagenham and Redbridge, Essex
- South
Baby Basics Portsmouth, Hampshire
Baby Basics Guildford
Baby Branch Southampton, Hampshire
Baby Necessities Southampton, Hampshire
Portsmouth Baby Bank, Hampshire
- Channel Islands
Baby Basics Jersey
- London
214 SPACE Baby Bank Hub Brent
214 SPACE Baby Bank Hub Hammersmith & Fulham
214 SPACE Baby Bank Hub Kensington & Chelsea
Growbaby Lighthouse, Sutton, Greater London
Growbaby, Newham
Growbaby, Merton
Bromley Brighter Beginnings
Growbaby Purley
Baby Basics, Barnet
Cariad Baby Bank, Harrow
Growbaby Kingston upon Thames
Choices Boutique Islington
Cornerstone Baby Bank Leyton
Growbaby Wandsworth
Baby Basics Sunbury
Growbaby Enfield
Ealing Salvation Army Baby Bank
The Small Project South London
Tiny Toes, Tiny Feet, Northwood
Camberwell Baby Bank
Orchard Baby Bank, Woodford
Peabody Toddlers Clothes Bank, Ilford
Pram Depot Wood Green
Little Village (London-wide)
Mammakind Baby Bank, Greenwich
MerryGoRound Islington
Growbaby Hoxton
NCT Redbridge Baby Bundles
Hackney Children & Baby Bank
Ilford Salvation Army Baby Bank
Mama2Mama Woolwich
Lloyd Park Children's Charity Baby Bank Walthamstow
The Extra Mile, Hampton, Richmond Upon Thames.
- Midlands
Brierley Hill Baby Bank, Dudley, West Mids
Baskets of Joy Leicester
Growbaby Leicester
Alice Charity, Newcastle under Lyme, Staffordshire
Growbaby Northampton
The Arches, Nottingham
High Peak Baby Bank, Buxton, Derbyshire
Growbaby, Nuneaton, Warwickshire
Growbaby Bedworth, Warwickshire
Bicester Baby Bank, Oxfordshire
Elayos Baby Bank Birmingham
Baby Basics Wolverhampton
Growbaby Birmingham St Michaels Church
Baby Aid Birmingham
Baby Basics Warwick
Baby Godiva Coventry
Growkids Coventry
Baby Basics Chesterfield, Derbyshire
Baby Basics Long Eaton, Notts
Baby Basics Leicester
Baby Basics Northampton
Baby Basics Hinckley, Leicestershire
Growbaby Birmingham Vineyard City Centre Site
Tots in Need Walsall, West Mids
Spark Baby & Children's Bank Staffordshire
Staffordshire Baby Bank, Stafford, Staffs
Telford and Wrekin Baby and Toddler bank, Shropshire
Clothe and Feed Wallsend, Herefordshire
Little Stars Shropshire
Karis Baby Bank Central Birmingham
NCT Malvern Hills Baby Bundles, Worcs
Little Cherub's Baby Bank High Peak, Derbyshire
Growbaby Worcester
- Wales
Baby Basics Dryffryn Clwyd Denbigh
Baby Basics Vale of Glamorgan
Baby Basics Newtown
Baby Basics Swansea
Baby Basics Port Talbot
Baby Basics Wrexham
Cwtch Baby Bank Cardiff
Baby Basics Penrhiwceiber
Cariad a Cwtch Baby Bank Llandrindod Wells
Growbaby Cardiff
Pembrokeshire Baby Bank
Splice Baby Bank Bridgend
Bundles Baby Clothing and Birth Support, Newport
Bethel Baby Bank Port Talbot
NCT Cardiff Baby Bundles
Ely Baby Bank
Feed Newport Baby Bank
- Scotland
Bairn Necessities, Glasgow
AberNecessities, Aberdeen
Growbaby Fife
Baby Bank Scotland, Hamilton
Bairnecessities Aberdeenshire
Bear Necessities Airdrie
Togs for Tots Dundee
Glasgow Baby Food Bank
GRA Baby Bank Aberdeenshire
Nelly Boxes East Renfrewshire Baby Bank
No 1 Glasgow Baby & Family Support Service
Tiny Treasures Baby Bank Oban
Button and Bows Baby Bank Perth
Cumbernauld & Kilsyth Care
Misty Glen Baby Bank Fort William
Dingwall Primary Baby Bank
Moray Baby Bank
Monklands Baby and Family Clothing Aid
- East
Abi's Footprints, Sudbury, Suffolk
Baby Bank Norfolk
Baby Basics Lowestoft, Suffolk
Baby Basics West Norfolk
West Marsh Baby Bank, Lincolnshire
Suffolk Baby Bank, Bury Saint Edmunds
Baby's Basket, Lincoln, Lincolnshire
Growbaby Thetford, Norfolk
Growkids Norwich, Norfolk
Fenland Family and Baby Bank, Cambridgeshire
GrowKids Cambridge, Cambridgeshire
Little Family Baby Bank, Sutton On Sea, Lincolnshire
Little Treasures Baby Bank, Horncastle, East Lincolnshire
Little Bundles, Cambridge, Cambridgeshire
- Northern Ireland
Baby Basics Antrim & Newtonabbey
Baby Basics Ballymena
Baby Basics Belfast
Bump2Baby NI (Mid-Ulster Baby Bank)
Baby Basics Banbridge
Baby Basics Causeway
Baby Basics Magherafelt
Baby Basics Mullavilly
Growbaby Enniskillen
Carrickfergus Baby Bank